I Filmed My Abortion

Why We Need Guilt

A young abortion counselor has made the ultimate “selfie,” filming her reactions to her own abortion -- and posting it online. BreakPoint is next.

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John Stonestreet

Abortion has almost always carried a stigma, even by those who support it. For example, when Bill Clinton famously said he wanted abortion to remain “safe, legal, and rare,” it was an admission from a staunch abortion-rights president that abortion, at best, is a necessary evil. And his wife, when running for the Oval Office, said that abortion is “a sad, even tragic choice to many, many women.”

Rare? Sad? Tragic? Well, don’t tell that to Emily Letts, the latest darling of the abortion-rights movement. Emily, a counselor at the so-called Cherry Hill Women’s Center in New Jersey, says she had an abortion but doesn’t have a tinge of guilt or sadness about it.

And to prove it, Emily filmed herself during the “procedure” and posted it on Youtube. Why on earth would she do that, you might ask. “I wanted to show it wasn’t scary,” Emily now says, “and that there is such a thing as a positive abortion story. It’s my story.”

daily_commentary_05_14_14Well, yes, it certainly is this woman’s story. You might even call her short, intentionally non-graphic video the ultimate selfie. A former aspiring actor, Emily plastered her face all over the video, which won a cash award from an abortion advocacy group for her “talking about having a positive abortion experience, for sharing [her] surgery experience with us, and for being so open.” Yes, she certainly is open in the video. Listen:

“I knew the cameras were in the room during the procedure,” she says, “but I forgot about them almost immediately. I was focused on staying positive and feeling the love from everyone in the room. I know that sounds weird, but to me, this was as birth-like as it could be. It will always be a special memory for me.”

But nothing is mentioned about the other person whose story it is. The child, whose life is being taken, never appears in Emily’s video, and certainly never experiences all that love and positive energy. We hear nothing about this tiny human, whether its a boy or a girl, how big it is, whether he or she had developed fingerprints, if the tiny heart was pumping, or to what level the brain was functioning. The video is silent about how this child was disposed of. All we hear about is Emily and how she feels so good and guilt-free about her decision. For the baby, it was nothing like a birth. No, it was just the opposite.

And it’s worth mentioning, abortion wasn’t a positive experience for the woman who lost her life at Kermit Gosnell’s “house of horrors” abortion clinic, or the numerous other women who have lost their lives in abortion clinics over the years. Their stories, often buried by the media, should be heard too.

“I am grateful,” writes Emily Letts of her decision to abort her child and post a video of it for the world, “that I can share my story and inspire other women to stop the guilt.” But what she misses is the source of the guilt that she’s trying to escape.Newsletter_Gen_180x180_B

It does not come just from society, as she assumes. It comes from her own conscience, however seared it might be. Guilt is a part of our shared humanity. And much of it comes from the way we, and the world we live in, is made. This kind of guilt isn’t a feeling; it’s a fact, and the only way to remove it, for any of us, is to stand at the foot of a Cross that was once raised on a Judean hill and to ask for forgiveness.

Friends, in this world, we need some guilt. We need the guilt that tells us that we’re not autonomous, that we’re responsible to a moral law and the moral Law-Giver and to other humans (including those not yet born). A cheerful Youtube video will never change this truth. And to attempt to rid ourselves of all guilt is an act of self-delusion. It’s dangerous and it’s foolish. And yet we, as a culture, seem hell-bent on doing it, particularly in the area of sexuality.

Emily’s smiles and giggles during and after the “procedure” can’t whitewash the reality of a life torn from the safety of a mother’s womb, another victim of our incessant attempts to escape from the guilt of any of our decisions. And in this case, the victim was guilty of only one thing … inconvenience.

Further Reading and Information

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This is a tragic story of an attempt to whitewash the consequences of a horrific act. But it is also an opportunity to proclaim the truth, that every human being conceived is worthy of life.

Learn about the new pro-life movement, led by young people like Lila Rose, who are exposing abortion for what it is and offering alternatives. Then pray for those who deny reality to cover up feelings of guilt. Pray that God would change hearts and redeem lives, as He has promised.

Guilt and Filming an Abortion
John Stonestreet | BreakPoint.org | May 7, 2014

Why I Filmed My Abortion
Heather Wood Rudulph | Cosmopolitan | May 5, 2014


Well said, John.
Video of abortion
Your thoughts on this 'blatant attempt to justify abortion by this woman' are so touching. Very well said John. I am impressed with your strong opposing views. I'd like for this view to be attached to the link from this woman!
Videoing Her Abortion Won't Help Her Or Anyone Els
Aren't snuff videos illegal -- considered to be in the same class with illegal pornography? Shouldn't she be arrested instead of praised? I don't seriously expect that to happen but,
at some point in the future, this young woman will have a different perspective on what she has done and will regret her decision to post this video. When that happens, I hope she can find forgiveness, or she may find she has destroyed one more life than she intended.
As Christine Sisto of National Review points out, the video doesn't actually show an abortion:


Emily was an aspiring actor? I wonder if maybe an abortion didn't actually occur. It would not be the first lie to support abortion rights.

Regardless, this video is almost certainly an attempt to counteract the fear of abortion procedures that will arise when the movie about Kermit Gosnell is released.