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A Christmas Story

All Things Examined



originalHave you ever wished that life had a rewind button, one that you could press to run back the tape and edit out something you had done: a thoughtless comment or impetuous act that, whether deliberate or not, was hurtful to someone?

I have, for more reasons than I care to admit. But there is one thing that, after decades, haunts me to this day, every time I watch A Christmas Story.”

A modern classic

It is little wonder that “A Christmas Story” fast became a modern seasonal classic. While lacking the supernatural or fantastical elements essential to the plots of “It’s a Wonderful Life,” “A Christmas Carol,” “Miracle on 34th Street,” and other holiday favorites, “A Christmas Story” captures the essence of childhood in a way that others do not.

Narrated by the lead character, Ralphie, as an adult, the story is his recollection of a boyhood Christmas with all the fantasies, frustrations, fears, and disappointments that go along with “kid-dom.” For grownups of his generation—early baby-boomers, especially men—his recollections are so familiar that Ralphie might have been one of our neighbors, friends, or even one of us.

What BB gun-lusting boy hadn’t been rebuffed with, “You’ll shoot your eye out”? What finicky child hadn’t been guilt-tripped with, “There are starving people in China”? Who among us hadn’t issued, or been threatened with, “double-dog” and “triple-dog” dares? And who, in a day when kids still walked to school, didn’t deal with the prospect of losing their lunch money to “Scut Farkus”?

Clever lines

Added to the near-autobiographical familiarity of the story, is narration strung together with clever lines like this: "In the heat of battle my father wove a tapestry of obscenities that as far as we know is still hanging in space over Lake Michigan."

And this:“With as much dignity as he could muster, the Old Man gathered up the sad remains of his shattered Major Award. Later that night, alone in the backyard, he buried it next to the garage. Now I could never be sure, but I thought that I heard the sound of ‘Taps’ being played. Gently.”

And who could forget the unguarded moment when, right in front of his dad, Ralphie let “FUDGE” —well, not “fudge,” but the “queen-mother of dirty words” —slip from his lips:

“I was dead. What would it be? The guillotine? Hanging? The chair? The rack? The Chinese water torture? Hmmph. Mere child's play compared to what surely awaited me.”

That scene especially reminds me why the real Christmas story is so important. It goes back to that “thing” I did decades ago.

‘Sally’
I was fifteen at the time, a drummer in a local rock band and a country band, neither of which hurt my popularity with girls. One girl, “Sally” (not her real name), was my next-door neighbor.

For some time, Sally had been harboring what we called then a “crush.” Although the feeling was not mutual, we were friends who would sometimes, as they might say today, “hang out together.”

There were times when Sally would lean in a little too close with a kittenish look that invited a response I was not ready to give. I never told her how things were with me, hoping that my body language would get the message across. It didn’t.

Yet I still couldn’t bring myself to divulge my true feelings for fear that I might hurt hers—which makes my “unguarded moment” all the more incomprehensible, even frightening.

It happened on a warm spring day.

In the muck

My cousin and I were in the bed of a Ford pickup standing knee-deep in a load of powdered manure. We had been tasked—actually, ordered would not be too strong a word—to shovel the ambrosial offering into a neat pile by the garden.

As we took up our shovels, we looked at each other and an unspoken thought passed between us: What were our parental Ayatollahs thinking? This was spring, for heaven’s sake, the time when a young man’s fancy turns to thoughts of . . . man, of anything but dry cow poop!

The Song of the Volga Boatmen” came to mind; the dirge-like mood and cadence matched our enthusiasm to a tee. With that spark of inspiration, we began pitching and flinging in time with the languid tune.

This went on for several minutes, then . . . whether it was the weather, adolescent testosterone, or our morning pancakes, something energized us. All the sudden, we accelerated the tempo.

Shovels began flinging and dung flying in an undeclared competition against who, what? Who knows? It was like the scene in “Cool Hand Luke” when the chain gang suddenly starts slinging asphalt on a road at break-neck pace to finish their work in record time.

An expanding cloud of dung enveloped the truck and covered our sweat-drenched bodies. Oblivious to the degrading conditions we were creating, we continued our frenetic activity until I caught sight of something—a dark silhouette standing beyond the thick brown smog.

I stopped shoveling, prompting my cousin to do the same. As the filaments of manure began settling out of the air and onto our shirtless torsos, giving us that darkened surf-boy look, I recognized the silhouette as Sally’s.

An appalling act

She stood at a safe distance from the truck until the air cleared, then approached. It was obvious that Sally was trying to impress. She had been freshly made-up with what appeared to be a new hairdo. I had just caught a whiff of perfume, when I heard, “Regis, throw it on her. Yeah, go ahead! C’mon, do it! Do it!”

Was it my cousin? One of our darker angels? My imagination? To this day, I really don’t know. I only know is that when I saw the shovelful of brown heading for Sally, it was a nightmare—only one from which I wouldn’t awake to find that I hadn’t done what I‘d done—an act so appalling, shameful, and cruel that I couldn’t believe I did it, even as I watched the results before my very eyes.

Until that day, I wouldn’t have thought I was capable of such a thing. Not only had I never done anything like it before, I had a reputation among the girls as being “one of the nice guys” in school.

In the brief time it took for the muck to reach its target—probably one second—a dozen thoughts raced through my mind. There was disbelief at what was happening. There was the desire to undo it, to walk it back, to reel it in, if by some power of will or magic incantation. There was horror at how this would affect Sally. There was fear over what my parents would do, what her parents would do, but more importantly, what this would do to our friendship. And perhaps, most importantly, there was fear of what this said about me, and to me.

Before the sun went down, I was, uh, disciplined in a number of ways, all deserved and appropriate. In addition to the corporal punishments, there were the apologies to my parents, Sally’s parents, and Sally, and the confession to my parish priest.

Amazingly, Sally and I resumed our friendship, but we never mentioned that day again. Two years later, she moved away with her family. A year after that, I entered college which, I was surprised to learn later, was in a town near her home. We reconnected, saw each other three or four times during my college years, then lost touch.

Our real need

I have often wondered what happened to Sally. The thought that she bears a scar caused by me haunts me even now.

But more unsettling is the realization of something in me, in all of us, that under the right conditions, can lead us to say or do things that we never would have dreamt possible, whether it’s blurting out “F-dash-dash-dash” in front of our dad or throwing manure on our friend. It’s a part of the human condition that the apostle Paul personally knew and spoke plainly about:

“For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.”

It is the bad news of our condition, Paul also knew, that doesn’t have to end badly:

“There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.”

Or control us in the interim:

“But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you.”

“A Christmas Story” reminds me of my need for the real Christmas story, a story that begins with an announcement, “The Lord is with you,” and ends with a promise, “I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

Between those bookends is a love letter, telling me that I am not an orphan left to my wits and resources to overcome my weaknesses; I am a child of the living God, a temple of His Spirit with immediate access to Him who is ever ready to help me in my time of need.

For people like me who have shocked themselves by their own behavior, that is good news. Very good news.

Image copyright Warner Home Video.

Regis Nicoll is a freelance writer and a BreakPoint Centurion. Serving as a men’s ministry leader and worldview teacher in his community, Regis publishes a free weekly commentary to stimulate thought on current issues from a Christian perspective. To be placed on this free e-mail distribution list, e-mail him at centurion51@aol.com.


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